Serious

WARNING: Serious blog to follow (it happens sometimes so bear with me please)

I laid in bed this morning with my baby nephew sleeping soundly beside me and I cried. Why did I cry? Well, first because I'm a woman and that's just how we roll. Second, I think I was mourning the loss of my opportunity to ever hold my own child like that again. And third, because I don't understand how someone can have a gift as precious as this child and not want it. I mean are you kidding me? You'd rather run around with your head up some crazy chicks ass than to spend time with your son...SERIOUSLY?!?! You need your ass kicked. You don't make the decision to make a life....and YES, I know you DECIDED to do it....it wasn't an "oops" and it wasn't the first time you tried either...and then just shrug your shoulders and forget about him. What have you done for him? HUH? Are you a good example? HELL NO! You're not there for him. Does he know you're his daddy? NO...you're NEVER there!!! He knows your brother more than he knows you! What have you bought for him that you weren't ASKED to get? NOT A DAMN THING that I've seen. It's PATHETIC and I'd like to find you and that capital C that you run around with and kick her in the teeth for what she's turned you into. This child is precious and beautiful and his smile when he wakes up is amazing! He's talking now...did you know that? He's pulling up...did you know? NO NO and NO!! None of it. I'm ashamed of you. I used to be so proud of you. Proud to call you family but now...you're not my family! You have your own little family with your wifey...just ask her. Nobody else is important but her and that's the most pu$$y whipped, pathetic bullshit I've ever heard. NOBODY would keep me from my child!! And if they tried, I'd die trying to get to him. And to think...he's just a little ways down the road from you. So sad!!! But, I know that when he grows up, he's gonna know who was there for him. Who had clothes, diapers, food, formula, toys and whatever else he needed for him. He will know who took care of him. He will know who played with him and who took pictures of his beautiful smile. He will know his mama loved him, his great grandparents loved him, his aunts and uncle loved him....he'll know who was there and who wasn't. And one of these days he's gonna look at you and say "you were never there for me....why?" And I want to know your answer!!!!!!!